WTF Past

Posted 3 October 2012 by

Next weekend I have my college reunion. I will be reconnecting with old friends as well as speaking on a panel with current students. Somehow I was convinced that I should organize this auspicious occasion.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s been a lot of fun, but it’s also been…

It’s been… a long time. The last time I visited my alma matter for undergrad it was 2001 and I was a 23 year old who thought I knew everything. I was brave, worked three jobs, and lived in Boston, MA.  Now I am a 35 year old who doesn’t really know as much as I thought I did who works one job and lives in Los Angeles, CA.  Back then I thought I was going to be a Director. After studying theater in undergrad, I knew I had to find something that was going to pay the bills so of course I began studying film at Emerson College in Boston because I was going to make WAY more being a film director than a theater director… yeah about that… I moved to LA and those dreams shifted and I vowed I would produce a great movie or TV show… now I produce web content.  However, I have to admit the dreams are still kicking around especially after revisiting this… Producer for Hire an old blog where I discussed the business of producing. Funny how I came across this again after two years being away from it. Perhaps the past comes back around for a reason?

Thinking about college has brought up other thoughts including past relationships. Honestly I know that this sprung up mostly because I was lucky enough to get access to my ex boyfriend’s wedding pictures on Facebook through mutual friends, but still it made me think about all that I had done right and much of what I had done wrong when it came to matters of the heart. I think the biggest thing from any past relationship is learning from these rights and wrongs and doing what you can to not repeat the same mistakes. Thinking about my ex’s I am grateful how much I learned and grew plus I am also grateful that I am no longer with them because I am with someone that suits me far better than I could have hoped for…

So what does all this mean… well for me as I am about to revisit the past in a big way this weekend I am grateful for all who have come into my life and all the lessons I learned along the way… eleven years later I am a far different person than I was, and still the same in many respects. Looking forward to reconnecting with old friends who probably are still very much the same and excited to speak with some young students attending the college who don’t have their hopes dashed quite yet… though that may all change once I ask them why the fuck they are studying theater?

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